Hmm….
i went and started a new blog and now i don’t know what to put in it. the writer in me wants to be let out. there is no ignoring or subdueing it. when ignored it keeps shooting up untill it bubbles at the surface.
i’ve been feeling useless lately. this entire week was down the drain. i had goals for the week but somehow none of ’em were achieved. i feel really shitty right now.
plus my emotions slash hormones have gone haywire. i think the whole world is against me. on days like this i thank God it’s not possible for our thoughts to be plastered on our fore head. i can’t imagine anyone else knowing what was going on in my mind at the moment.
there’s something i don’t have here that i used to take for granted back home. that is the ability to shut the rest of the world out and be by myself.
all i can do now is be patient and remind myself no situation is permanent.
meantime i need to be motivated. i need to do something positive with myself that doesn’t revolve around me being in this house.
Swine Flu in the UK!!!!
I knew it!
Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!
When I have these thoughts people think I’m being paranoid. But I’ve been here less than a month and already there is an epidemic on the rise. I knew the moment I came here some crazy shit would happen and here it is. Swine flu has finally landed in UK. It was only a matter of time really. I’m just praying the wind doesn’t blow it our way.
the here and now
I never told anyone this, but one of my fears about living in the UK was flesh eating bacteria. You see it in National Geographic documentaries all the time. Some poor fellow that went to play in the fields ends up being rushed to the ER with half the meat of his thighs hanging off him… then they have to amputate because it’s spreading fast. But they don’t get all of it out, so it spreads to the rest of his body and he eventually rots away; quite literally!
That, and the dreaded MRSM bug… it’s scary. The way I wash my hands everytime I come from outside is starting to borderline on the obsessive compulsive. Better safe than sorry; better OCD than dead!
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Got my new Necchi sewing machine, yey! It’s wee compared to my previous Singer which is considered as ‘vintage’ over here. It’s the stuff you find in the History of Fashion section in a museum. I loved it because it was very easy to sew around corners.
Can’t wait to get into it. Lots of rearrangements to do though, as per work space. Right now the only available table/surface is in the garage… and it’s damn cold, but I have no choice. I’ll just have to discipline myself untill we get our own place.
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The Ferret 